Baby?

I'm just sitting here after a L.O.N.G. shift.  And just wondering, "when will it be my time?"  When will God say, "Okay, Kim and Tim, you're ready!"

The honest answer is always that God is telling me I am ready for just right now.  Being a mom will not be the ending goal.  The end-all-be-all.  Getting pregnant won't make me feel like I have arrived.

If I am going to be honest with myself, I know I love being just with Tim right now.  Just us.  We see a lot of our relatives, especially ones with kiddos and I see that life only gets more complicated.  And we are just "us" today.

So,  I don't really care any more.  Or at least that's how I feel today.

I'm unashamed to say I just made myself an Amaretto Scotch on the rocks and my shoulders feel warm.  And I will head to bed.  Yes, I drink sometimes.  And sometimes I just need to come home and "be."  So I've blog a boring blog about my non-fertility and my drinking habits and again my work.  I love delivering babies, but it could be the death of me!!!

Cheers to one more day of work (for me!) and maybe a couple more for you :)